had a really bad day today. one of the worst ever. don't really feel like getting into it now. maybe another time, most likely never. just sad about some things. family law exam i didn't even finish, my job i hate, my co-workers i hate, the pressures i seem to have day in and day out, horrible headache and feeling about ready to throw up and cry at the same time, arguing to no end, and really great things with the inevitable end, close at hand. happiness at the expense of others. pleasing people at the expense of others. it doesn't make any sense. its just sad and in the end, who really wins? is the prize the girl? the friend? trust? or maybe just a laugh once in a while. must have slipped my mind that i signed up to play the game. of course none of this makes any sense except in my own aching brain. interpret what you will. probably doesn't matter anymore anyways. who am i to care? who are we to care? its just about 7% of our little lives. when was 7% ever worth anything? maybe four years ago, but that was so long ago that we already forgot about that right? i care so little right now, that i wish i just transferred schools and just went away. need a new band hall to bury myself in its shadows. of course i don't mean all of this; my head just hurts.
yesterday was amazing. like christmas in fall. michael moore was more than i could have ever asked for. it was so incredible and we felt like we were part of history in the making both in utah and our school. truly an event in my life that i will never forget. its been a long time since i was so happy. to top it off, what a game, what a series. i take back my comment about not caring about the series this year. i had just assumed the yanks would win again, so why bother. a wise person once wrote, um, well can't remember. it was on ryan's away message last night. speaking of, hi.
the week was good and probably the best this semester. i don't suppose it could have lasted a bit longer.
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